So at the end of 2015 something happened to me. I have no idea what, but I felt a change come over me. I cannot explain how, why, or when, but it was for the good. In my past blogs I wrote a little about the lows in my life, and how it affected me very deeply. This new, strange feeling was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders. Why it happened, I have no clue. But I had never felt so good about myself, the way I looked, or even what I said. I basically did not give a shit anymore. I fell in love with someone so special who could make or break me and it was none other than me.
Took me long enough to realize that I was the only one who could fix me, and no one else could. There are people who thrive on others misery, then there are your well wishers who always have your back no matter what. But the only one person that mattered was myself. “I” had to get out of this rut and fix myself and no one else could do this for me. Even my closest ones never really knew what I was going through and how I almost did not make it.
But as I sit here with 2016 winding down, all I can say is WOW! what a fantastic 2016 it has been. I have enjoyed every single moment of it. Making new friends, making more memories with my son, traveling, meeting old friends, got a new job and even had major reconstructive surgery. I survived 2016, well another couple of hours to go.
But I do want to give some credit to one person. Sometime during 2015, I reconnected with someone I had not heard from in 20 some years. This person became a confidante. I could talk about my worries, my fears and was never judged by this person. On one such occasion as I was chatting with this person, I penned my first blog and it felt good. Then I was on a roll, and started on my life story which was so therapeutic. Not being a writer, and being able to pen everything from my heart helped me tremendously. I was also introduced to yoga, meditation and something called the Isha Kriya. I was happy, and I had full control of my emotions again. I was comfortable discussing anything and everything with this person. I wish everyone finds one such person in their life.
So as I get ready to welcome 2017, I am hoping for a much more positive year, a fun year and most of all a fulfilling year. So wishing you all an amazing 2017 and may we all have more adventures, volunteer more, and be kind to one another.
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